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It's been three months since my last post. Things have changed; friends come and go, I'm about to graduate from college, I'm looking for a job/internship, feelings have changed for the better (or worse).

I've been wondering if writing in this blog is even worth it. But ... it is comforting though. I like the sound of the keys. Reminds me of the airplane scene with George Clooney and Anna Kendrick in Up in the Air.

Ryan: "You mad at your computer?"

Natalie: "I type with purpose."


I don't feel the need to update much about my life right now. The most important things are: I'm graduating, I love my current internship, baseball season is coming up, I love the people I've met through my organization and I'm currently looking at possible summer internships and/or full-time PR jobs.

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Is it possible to finally lose interests after four months? Techincally, I started losing interests after THREE months. Yeah. After a conversation with a friend, I don't feel so guilty anymore. I have to be realistic about things and sometimes people don't want to leave their comfort zones.

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So, my best friend and I are going to start a really cool blog soon. Well, we've already came up with the name and made an account, but we're going to start it once this week is over. We haven't had the chance to start contributing to it since Sunday night. I'll let you know when we *officially* start it asap. :)

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I must go. The game is on, and I have an article and a long overdue paper that needs to be done TONIGHT.

halfway

I'm reading too much into this. I'm not supposed to know everything, but yet I was given the apple and now the temptation has taken over.

I couldn't resist.


At the moment, I have the window open and I keep reading the same subject over and over again.


I remember someone saying that it's all in the past. But the past makes you the person you are today...


How am I supposed to stop my mind from wondering?


Clearly, I'm not thinking clearly.


I'm halfway in, but I'm also halfway gone.

too many mind.

Even though it took me this long to realize what people have been saying, I know now that I need to stop this feeling.

I've become relient on this "happy feeling". But what's so different about this "happy feeling," is how it's making me become sadder.

She was right; I'm not the same person before this happened. I used to be carefree yet focused on my tasks. Now? I'm more worried abomy actions and unfocused on my priorities.


"Why make someone a priority when they only make you an option?"


I feel like I've become an option, or at least, someone easily forgotten at the moment.

This feeling of mine has been lingering for quite sometime and it needs to STOP. NOW. Before I go crazy and ruin everything I've worked for.

All I want is to be happy...but not this way.


Goodbye love, I'll see you when I see you.

solemn

I found this on someone's blog:




"I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm upset that from now on I can't believe you."




I hope I never have to say that.